Recieve your call in the morning..
First sentence i heard was
'Daddy is going to remove your com room power socket & light source'
Just because i forgot to turn off the power supply..
Just because i was so fucking tired that my lappy is giving me problem
refusing to shut down n i just press the on/off button to solve the problem
and walking out of my room ever so groggy forgetting to turn off the lights
Now it become a weapon, a threat that both of you can use against me..
Trying to ban me from using the room till late at night..
Because i have been like so fucking busy with my stuff
that i forgot to return your call
that i forgot to help you check something which you ask me to
NOW i see the time that both of you are trying to make things difficult for me..

Every fault is always me to begin with..

I put so much effort, spend so much time on _______
I neglected everything else..
My Family
My Friends
My R/S
My Studies
Yet it is still the _______ that keeps me going
How long more can i actually ______
How long more can i ________
Am i doing what i am suppose to do?
________ filled my mind~
Where is my motivation now?
What motivates me now?
I guess..
What keeps me going on is still ____________ & ____________


I am breaking,falling apart, losing myself

I'm going to bring my lappy to school in case
both of you is going to do something to my lappy..

Phoebe aka perfectionist

♥ 9:15 AM

Have you feel like killing yourself after a dance performance?
I DID~ and YES..IT HAPPEN TO ME~

Imagine:
- Props(umbrella) spoil & missing
- Not able to quick change & join in next routine in time
- Forget steps
- Stand wrong formation
- Earring drop

It never ever happens to me before you know..
ITS like so DEPRESSING
Cant help but blame myself & started crying my eyes out..
Its a learning lesson & experience for me
But isnt it too much in a lesson to be learnt?
Why be so harsh?
Morale being push down to the bottom of the pit~

**Thanks treasa sis for the bird nest**

Phoebe aka perfectionist

♥ 11:46 PM

How i wish.....................................................

Signing off: Phoebe aka Perfectionist

♥ 1:10 AM